Poems from the heart series #1

In my heart of hearts

In furious rage
Fury I could not assuage
I flung down the gauntlet
It hit me but caused another hurt.

In my callous ire
Oh no, not in my desire
I never wanted to hurt you
Indeed you knew.

You forgave me and in shame I shudder
I could not forgive me my blunder
Curse my repeated rashness
My heart still feels the wretchedness.

Let me ease your sense of dejection
Let me bear the angst of the desolation
My grief still cuts
In my heart of hearts.

Note : This heart-wrenching poem was written on 24/12/2003. Though it's cliched, all I wanted to do was to put across my angst and grief at that moment in time. The metre isn't very good but when I wrote this poem my main concern was not the metre but just to get my feelings on paper, hoping that the very act of putting my feelings on paper would help make me feel better.